It’s crazy for me to think that I’ve already entered my third month here at Potter’s Field. It seems like only yesterday that the 12 of us met in the haze of that first day, but here we are 63 days later and closer than I ever thought we could ever get.
The Lord has definitely met me here, taught me lesson after lesson and opened my eyes times and time again to truths that I was for so long blind to. The Monica that I see today in the mirror is definitely not the same girl that I was when I got here and I praise the Lord for His Faithfulness and His willingness to continue to teach me and mold me despite my pride and foolish ways ( see what I did there? hehe).
Does that mean that I’m done? Now that I can actually see growth in myself dos that mean I’ve reached the pinnacle end all be all in my growth adn relationship with the Lord?...pft! NOPE!
If there is one thing that the Lord has shown me time and time again, especially in the last few days is that I wil never achieve perfection ( man was that a hard lesson for me to learn) nor will I ever reach a point in my walk with Him where I get a retirement plan and slow down, nor is that something I want to do.
I need to push through and continue steadfastly in my walk, and this mentality should not be limited to times of trouble or trial, but should be at the forefront of my mind during the good times as well. Yay! I’m delighting myself in the Lord, walking with Him daily and growing more and more everyday, I need to persevere with this attitude.
I’m scared to grow complacent with my walk, I’m genuinely scared that this Love I have for God will one day become common place and that in my comfort I will stop strive to perfect myself in Him, or work towards the plans He’s specifically laid out for me.
I love the last part of the verse, “ that I may layhold of that which Christ Jesus laid hold of me”. I get this picture of my head of Christ grabbing me out from the depth so that I could with the same fervor and love grab ahold of the plans that He has for my life.
In the same way that He never ceases to have a desire for me to be with Him and He never grows weary of pursing me, may I never become weary or pursuing Him and may I never cease to desire to be within His will, accomplishing the work that He rescued me for.
Application:
I commit to praying for a fresh baptism of the Holy Spirit every single day first thing every morning from now until October.
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